It's confirmed.

I can't go to Japan.

Just as I had expected it.

I called Gail to tell her, and she was like, "Try, you never know. They may give in"

Delia said the same thing.

But i know my parents best.

They had said their piece, and all I can do is to obey them.

Just like the filial, obedient daughter they had crafted me out to be.

I am a wax statue, they shape me.

I conform to their wishes, their demands. All these high expectations.

Don't mistake me. I love them, more than anything in this world.

I just wish they don't expect so much of me.

I wish they don't see me as perfect, and beautiful and able to do anything.

For i am human.

I need room to make mistakes.

I need to make bad choices, so i can learn from them.

If i not allowed this atleast, then how am i to grow?

For once, I wish they see me as their 17 year old daughter

and not the little girl i was.